AProposaltoMyself
佚名/Anonymous
AceintheHole
Understandthesemewwordsbeforeyoulistentothisarticle.
1.ignore[ig'n?:]v.不顧,不理會;忽視
2.exude[ig'zju:d]v.使滲出;發散(氣味等)
3.mysterious[mis'ti?ri?s]adj.神秘的;不可思議的
4.surgeon['s?:d??n]n.外科醫生
5.psyche['saiki]n.靈魂;精神
6.acquaintance[?'kweint?ns]n.相識的人,熟人
7.confused[k?n'fju:zd]adj.困惑的,惶惑的
IamwritingthisthedaybeforeIknowmyfate—thedaybeforeIknowtheanswertowhatwillhappeninmylife.IamwritingthiswithmymindsetthatIwillcarryonandnotletlifepassmeby.IamdeterminedthatIwillseetheworldineveryaspectthatmaybepossibleforme.IamsurethatIwillbecomesomething,eveniftheenvelopethatcarriesmylifeinsideitgivesmebadnews.
Iwillnotlistentothosewhoinsistthatauniversitydegreeistileonlywayyouwillfindameansoflivingthesedays.IwillignorethosewhotellmethatIamadreamerwithoutadream.IwilltellmyselfthatalthoughImaynotbeacceptedtocollege,Ihaveseenthenorthernlightscurtainthemselvesinfrontofme.IhavetastedthewineinParisandswuminAtlanticandPacificOceans.IhavebeentoanIrishpub,andIhavewatchedthesunrisefromtheRomanForum.IhaveclimbedtheSwissAlpsandcountedthestarsintheskyuntilIcouldseenomore.
Ihaveexperiencedwhatitisliketolive,andIwilltellmyselfthatevenifthatenvelopeissmallandexudesrejection,thepersonthattheyhaverejectedwillcarryonandgoontoseemoremountainsandswiminmorewatersandkeeponcountingthestars,becausesomewhereitiswrittenthatImustcontinuetolivemylifethewayIknowhowto.
TheenvelopethatwillreachmymailboxtomorrowwillbringananswerthatIamreadytobearwithcourageandself-respect.Iwillnotcry,unlesstheybetearsofjoyforbiddinggood-byetomychildhoodandwelcominginanewlife—onethatismysteriousandunknown.Onethatwillteachmetogrowandunderstandwhythingsarethewaytheyare.Onethatwillfilteroutallmyregretsandletmyself-worthmultiply.
Iwillbestronginmybattleandnotletlittlethingsbringmedown.Iwilltellmyselfthatitisokaytobescatterbrainedonceinawhileandthatsometimesthekindnessyoushowwillbalanceoutyourfaults.IwillknowthatIamagoodpersonandthatbeingsmartdoesn』tnecessarilymeanthatyouareacceptedintocollege.IknowwhoIamandtherearebrainsurgeonswhowouldbechallengedsortingthroughmymulti-facetedpsyche.
IamwritingthisthedaybeforeIknowmyfate—thedaybeforeIknowtheanswertowhatwillhappeninmylife.IamwritingthiswithmymindsetthatIwillcarryonandnotletlifepassmeby.IamdeterminedthatIwillseetheworldineveryaspectthatmaybepossibleforme.IamsurethatIwillbecomesomething,eveniftheenvelopethatcarriesmylifeinsideitgivesmebadnews.
Iwillnotlistentothosewhoinsistthatauniversitydegreeistileonlywayyouwillfindameansoflivingthesedays.IwillignorethosewhotellmethatIamadreamerwithoutadream.IwilltellmyselfthatalthoughImaynotbeacceptedtocollege,Ihaveseenthenorthernlightscurtainthemselvesinfrontofme.IhavetastedthewineinParisandswuminAtlanticandPacificOceans.IhavebeentoanIrishpub,andIhavewatchedthesunrisefromtheRomanForum.IhaveclimbedtheSwissAlpsandcountedthestarsintheskyuntilIcouldseenomore.